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I might be useless...

Mon, 12 May 2008 01:45:14 GMT

... but at least I get to be a pirate.

Yarrrgh!

Your Pirate Name be ...

Victoria Scarface

You are the bloodthirstiest of all pirates. Your name sends terror into every heart on the coast. Your intelligence and good sense allow you to avert all mutinies and keep your pirates happy.

'What is your Pirate Name?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Mon, 12 May 2008 01:02:08 GMT

So.

I was listening to Hasta Siempre, and reading about a woman´s fight against child prostituition in Camboja, and thinking about how I haven´t even finished my paper yet.

Ok, I can´t be Che Guevara. But still. I feel like I´m doing anything useful (probably because I´m not)and I don´t know where to start.

God, my life is so useless.

...

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 10:28:53 GMT

It´s not even 8 a.m. It´s raining. And it´s early and it´s raining, and it´s way, way to early and did I mention the rain?

Man.

I can´t believe I have to go to school. If I hadn´t missed classes last monday - and if I wasn´t supposed to discuss my own paper today - I´d stay in bed.

*SOB*

Ugh

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 17:48:46 GMT

Ok, now it’s final. I WILL get away from this computer, and I WILL read the damm Melanie Klein’s and what-his-name-‘s book from next week classes, because the damm thing is HUGE and I won’t be able to read everything Sunday morning right before said classes, so I WILL do it NOW when I have time and I will NOT, I said this again, I WILL NOT read erotic fiction instead, because erotic fiction won’t help me when the teacher asks for my opinion on the bloody books. That’s settled. It’s my final word.

At least Mel. K is kind of cool.

The Hogfather (some spoilers)

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 03:53:50 GMT

I’m starting to think that Discworld is too complex for me.

I just finished the Hogfather movie, and I almost fall out of my chair with the ending. The bit about Albert’s horse, I mean. I read the book two times – first one doesn’t count, my English was kinda crappy at the time – and I thought now I had everything figure it out, but I really, truly, didn’t get that that scene was in the past. And I went back to the book and is there, plain for everyone to see, and it completely missed me.

Then again, some of Prattchet’s stuff is way over my head. There are still jokes in the other books that I just can’t grasp. I can’t say if this is frustrating or fascinating.

Anyway, the movie was good. I still resent it for not mentioning Hex’s gift, but the rest of it was ok. Especially considering that the Discworld´s strongest point is the narrative skills, even if the plots are usually good and neatly tied. And I have to admit that reading the book is more entertaining than watching the movie, not because the movie was bad, but because the book is brilliant.

And I´m still shocked about the horse..

Meme

Tue, 12 Feb 2008 01:49:44 GMT

Lolz. My f-list will probably be offended by this... that is, if anyone bothers to read it.

Anyway.

dreams

Fri, 26 Oct 2007 23:15:23 GMT

So, today I dream of the Marauders. That happens once in a while, probably because I have no life. But hey, beats dreaming about my classes.

Anyway, in the dream, Regulus and Snape were best friends, and Regulus was implying to us, readers (yes, one of those dreams… it was happening, but I knew it was fiction) that he was a werewolf. Snape wasn’t getting, and that was the point, because Regulus was being manipulative and making up a lot of stuff about the Shrieking Shack to scare him. It was working, and Snape was getting increasingly worried (a little ooc, come to think about it).

So, I don’t know exactly how, the Marauders enter the scene and Sirius beats him up. Snape, not Regulus, who watches without being seem and doesn’t do a thing to help his friend. Remus just watched, a little bored, James was cheering Sirius and Peter was giving Snape this very contemptuous look, as if he wasn’t beating him himself because Snape didn’t worth the effort.

Then, somehow, Snape left to cry (!) somewhere else and Peter started playing the piano, and the others started to sing. Peter was the best of the lot, his voice sounded normal and tuned. Sirius seemed to think he was in some kind of opera, and James in some rock band. It was weird. And Lupin really sucked.

Then I was rudely awakened by my clock and I wanted to break the damm thing, because it’s been a while since I had an interesting dream and it totally ruined my fun. Crap. And somehow I knew that Snape would show up again and now I’ll never now what was going to happen.

So. It was a fun night.

languages, or something

Thu, 25 Oct 2007 18:03:41 GMT

So, I was reading some Half-Blood Prince sporkings and got to the chapter about the bezoar.

Well.

I read the book in English, yes, but sometimes a word looks like something from my language and I don’t bother to check its real meaning and end up getting lost in translation. Something like that. This also happened in book #7, when I mistook the Doe for a Dove, and spend the whole book thinking that this was probably the silliest patronus EVER. I was very embarrassed, after.

Anyway, the point is, the word bezoar sounds a lot like the Portuguese word for bug. As in, a beetle. And now I just figure it out, and...

EW!

(although eating a bug wouldn’t be all that pleasurable either. Still. EW!)

on writing

Tue, 23 Oct 2007 01:50:03 GMT

Why can´t I write?

Seriously. It used to be easy. It used to be as natural as breathing. There was always the writers block, and I´m not disciplined enough to write when unispired, but it wasn´t so fricking hard! I could easily write three short stories in a month, and now I´m lucky if I can finish one.

I don´t know if my style is changing, or if I never had one in first place, or if now I´m focusing to much on what possible readers will think instead of writing for myself, but it´s just so- ugh! Not there.

Bleh. I´m going to bed.

Sat, 20 Oct 2007 19:16:37 GMT

I spend two days away from LJ and suddenly Dumbledore is gay. Oh, well.

I didn’t really read the interview, so I’m going by the rants and essays of the fans in my F-List, but still. Meh. I never cared much for Dumbledore, even less for Gridenwald and, for some reason, canon gay characters in general don´t make me all that excited… Mostly because I think the authors will get it wrong, believe it or not. I know a lot of the slash/yaoi fanfiction is trash, but there are some pretty amazing fan-authors out there. Give me a Juxian Tang’s fanfic over anything JKR ever wrote in her life any day of the week, and I’ll be a happy girl.

But that’s not the point. The point is… meh. Nope, still don’t care. Probably wouldn’t care even if it was Lupin and Sirius ~~because I think she screwed up those characters~~. or, say, Draco and Ron. Although, now that I’m thinking about it…

*starts drooling*

So that’s it. I don’t care.

And now, since I´m here anyway, I present a list of fan-authors that IMHO are better than JK. If you’re reading this and feel like being mean today, make yours too. It will work as a rec-list ^_^

Juxian Tang. She’s my Godess. I got some of her works memorized. And I think she’s the only one who made me cry in a fanfic.

Amanuensis1. Guess everybody knows her, being a BNF and all, and she totally deserves it. Every time I read one of her fics (or drabbles, or ficlets or whatever) I find lines I totally want to steal. She’s good.

Senjism. She just finished this delightful long Snupin story and I’d count the good parts, but I can’t count that high. I just wish she’d write more Lupin/Sirius/Snape.

Fabula Rasa. And I found her after HBP and I think she wasn’t writing anymore (about HP anyway), because her OTP was Snape/Sirius and, well. I really wish she’d come back.

Rowen_r. She´s hilarious. And it turned out her “How to Survive…” list was actually useful. So there.

There are a lot more (half of the Snupin community, and, if I count the drabbles’ authors, the list will be a mile long).

The Inside

Wed, 26 Sep 2007 01:15:18 GMT

I just finished one more episode of The Inside. I’ve been kinda obsessing about this show because of some, how shall I put it, scenes of violence, and I’m ok with violence, to a certain degree and of a certain kind, even if I’m not into gore or too much blood.

So, I watched one of the episodes, one in which this ten-years-old girl cuts open an eight years old boy and waits around to see his mother’s reaction, not on screen, mind you, but still, and it was so bloody disturbing. And the end was totally not satisfying, because, well, when you open a can of worms like that you have to at least close it later so I can sleep in peace. I need to feel vindicated – redemption works best for me, but no in this case, and I totally wanted the girl to die – to be able to leave it all behind. When you create a morbid story, you have to finish it in a fitting way. It´s ok to take me out of my comfort zone, but you have to bring me back later, dammit.

Anyway. I think I’ll stop watching for a while. I need to be calm tomorrow and I won’t if I keep working myself up about fiction, of all things, because I have stress enough as it is, thank you very much.

I think I’ll watch some Care Bears now. Or something. No more suspense for me.

bleh

Sun, 23 Sep 2007 02:26:37 GMT

I´m bored. I´m in the middle of some serious writer's block. And I´m bored. And I can´t write anything. I´m re-reading some stuff and not liking it, because I can´t write anything worthy, and I´m bored. Did I mentioned that I´m bored?

Well, I am.

Read Bridge to Terabithia yesterday. Cried at the end. Watched the movie today. Cried at the end again. Even if I didn´t like the leading actress all that much.

But I´m still bored, still unable to write anything, and still feeling very bleh.

Bleh.

Tue, 07 Aug 2007 00:49:17 GMT

Lovely. I could use some true love.

HP 7

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 01:15:13 GMT

Finished book#7.

Actually, I was planning to find some popular fanfic writer or something to rant at them, because nobody reads my journal anyway and I want to talk to people, but they are talking about other things and anyway.

Cut for spoilers.

Was I the only one who fell deeply in love with Kreacher? He was the best thing in the book. Regulus is so much love. So way very cooler than Sirius, and I’m not saying that because I didn’t like Sirius anyway – come on, look at the guy. He drank that stuff and was kind to the elf and- and- <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

I liked the trio. I usually don’t. But I did in this book. Even Ron. I also liked the Weasley family, which I usually hate, even the twins, even Ginny, even everyone. Percy was also love.

Actually, the whole book was a very fun read. Even the subplots and the bits with The Prophet and stuff, I liked. And the epilogue was cute.

The things I didn’t like:

1. Snape´s death and the fact that he got to little screen time, and he deserved a medal and an Orden of Merlin and acknowledgment that he was TEH HOTTEST GUY ALIVE and a super-uber-spy. You go, Snape. I’ll miss you.
2. Pettygrew´s death. My, what a stupid scene. I think that was the only bit that got me completely “UH?” That was just… dumb. Blah.
3. Slythering not staying to fight. That´s also dumb. And implausible. So the only braves Slythering were Regulus and Snape? (And Draco, kind of?). Blah again.
4. The very, very, VERY long scene with Dumbledore explaining everything. But it wouldn’t be Rowlings without at least one explanatory speech, so that´s ok. And it’s still better than what she did in PoA.

Things I did like:

1. Kreacher. ‘Nuff said.
2. Regulus. ‘Nuff said too, but I´ll say again, he´s the bestest person in the whole world and I love him and he totally redeemed Slytherin.
3. Snape, but I liked him before. I knew it. I just knew it. Ç_Ç
4. Bellatrix taking down Greyback. Wow.
5. Neville and Luna. And Neville´s Gran. Gotta love that woman.
6. Umbridge questioning that woman. I was touched when she said that the wand had chosen her. One of the few bits that I actually could have cried.
7. …a lot of other things, come to think about it. All things considered, I think I got more fun with this book than with all the previous ones. I even liked Tonks/Remus – especially after the baby started to change the color of his hear. HOW CUTE IS THAT? Cutecutecute.

And the epilogue. Was I the only person who like it? So touching and lovely – Albus Severus. *sniff* I knew he was a good person, I just knew it. And Scorpio ~~(poor kid, what a stupid name)~~.

Sooo…. It was fun.

The fandon will probably last for a few more years, and there are new pairings now (although I´ll stick with mine, thank you), so I´ll still have something to do. I just hope that people with WIP will keep writing. Ok, fine, it completely AU now, so what? I’m not over begging and stalking and throwing myself at their feel. You have been warned. u.u

HP

Fri, 20 Jul 2007 06:17:10 GMT

Bloody fucking hell.

I don´t even like Harry Potter all that much. Really. I don´t. I think Rowlings is average at best, the story is interesting but can be beat by a dozen or more fanfiction and there are so many fantabulous author in the Net that I don´t even bother re-reading the books.

Then why am I feeling like something wonderful is going to end?

I started reading in the last semester, so it can be because of some parallel with growing up or something. And whatever happens, my OTP was never canon anyway so no big changes there. The fanfiction world will keep growing for at least a few more years, so nothing to fear here. And still...

One more weekend. And we’ll se the end of what feels like a lifetime with a close friend. Of a world unbelievable rich. Of hours theorizing and wondering and fighting our ship wars.

It was so much fun…

Blah. I hate to admit this, but I think I´ll miss it. Yeah.

My Input

Wed, 30 May 2007 17:28:06 GMT

So now everyone is talking about LJ´s new politics and the sad fate of porn_pixies (or something).

Well.

I can kind of understand what LJ is thinking, but it’s still stupid. It was the same when people started deleting communities at Orkut and Yahoo Groups (although they seem to go very easy on that one) because of pedophilia and racism and stuff. I say, people have the right to write and read whatever they feel like, and of course they have to keep porn away from the children, but children aren’t supposed to be in those groups anyway (or at least not at the restricted areas), so it’s not their problem.

And anyway, if people are using those communities to indulge in real child-abuse, the guys who are fighting should consider themselves lucky and go after the real people, not the community. The abusers would be practically screaming “hey, here I am, come and get me”. But no, they’ll rather put down some harmless fiction community and leave it at that. Sounds silly for me. Silly and slightly dangerous.

I like to read slash. I don’t really enjoy porn (I usually skip all the smut parts, unless they are REALLY interesting), but sometimes I go to the bdsmlibrary (the trash to end all trash) for some kicks. And even if I don’t like pedophilia or incest, I’m very fond of non-con and rapefic. I and I think I have all the right to read it, so I can understand the rage my f-list is feeling.

Plus, I watch, like, little more than ten personal LJ´s and a lot of communities. If my favorites authors decide to shut down their journals, then where will I find good fic?

~~but, really, I think it’s almost funny that more than half of them are complaining. What a bunch of pedophiles- sorry, I´m only joking ^_^~~

Thu, 17 May 2007 00:47:34 GMT

I’m tired and annoyed and I think I got the flu. And couldn’t sleep last night because I still have the voice of thirty something students ringing in my ears (if I concentrate, I can even say who’s talking – I think I’m going crazy). I don’t think I’ll get rich doing this, but I don’t have a better idea, I want money, I want students who actually care about what I’m saying, I want to take a little girl by her hair and bit her head against the wall (not any little girl; a very specific one who could probably benefit from it. Her brain might start working).

I’m also considering the idea of writing a fanfiction in which Snape comes to teach at this school. I could use some entertainment now. But he would have to go easy on the snark, because my pretty ones there won’t get it if he uses polysyllabic words.

.
.
.

That’s probably the flu talking. I’ll feel better by the morning. I hope.

Sun, 13 May 2007 03:51:05 GMT

Great, now I’m anxious. And slightly unhappy. And did I mention anxious?

I don’t know why. The classes, probably – even if the teachers DID take the day off on Friday (but not because of the Pope, I think. There was a party on the day before, they probably just thought it wasn’t worthy to go to the school) and I had to teach Arts to a bunch of nine years old kids (which, believe it or not, it was way more fun than the teenagers) who just wouldn’t sit down. I swear I wasn’t that hyper even when I was their age.

The teenagers mostly try to ignore me. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. I tried to make them work, but it’s tiresome and it might not work when I get the High School classes anyway, so I might have to re-do my plan.

And I’ve been learning things about myself. I learned that I’m a control freak. And that I like children, strangely enough. Maybe that’s the whole point – I can understand that the babies are climbing the chairs and talking too loud and screaming like an army of little banshees, but I can’t take that from a class of thirteen years old kids, can I?

Like I said, I’m anxious. I still don’t know what to do with my life. The only difference is that now I’m making some money instead of just angsting.

(not that I’m complaining. If I have to angst, at least I’m being paid. Not for angsting. But still).

PS: I can´t write anything. Damm writers block. Ç_Ç

Real Life Stuff

Thu, 10 May 2007 16:02:57 GMT

Do you know how it’s like when, coming back from a party or something, you can still hear al the loud voices and music and the beat still resounds in your head?

Well.

Yesterday was first day at work. I don’t know the English word for what I’m doing, but it works like this: when a teacher at High School or Junior High is absent, I go and take his/her place, so the class won’t be dismissed. I get paid by the hour, so my salary will depend of those guys missing all the classes they can and me having enough energy to show up at school to face all those blasted teenagers.

Whose voices, by the way, are the ones I spend all the night hearing, just like a very loud and annoying song. It’s a funny feeling – still hearing the echoes of all those “isn’t lunch time yet” and “I don’t get this” in the silence of my room.

At least I got some money. And tomorrow the Pope will be in Brazil. There will be classes, but the school will probably be empty anyway, especially considering that today they had a party. And who goes to the school in a Friday after a party anyway?

Except me, that is. Because I´m planning to show up and hope that everyone decides to go see His Holiness in person, so I can win some money without working for it.

And all this real life might help me to get my creativity ruunning up again. It´s been ages since I last wrote anything.

Plays

Sat, 05 May 2007 04:40:27 GMT

Just found out that they made a play out of "When Nietsche Wept".

WHY ISN´T ANYONE ADVERTIZING?

Now, really, how they expected me to find out? It could have missed me completely! And then I would be the one weeping.

... and I think it´s been a year since I last watched a play. The Phanton of the Opera. Now that was a nice one.

*stares off*

So, now I have some planning to do. Seems I´ll spend another week being distracted...

(just kidding. I have to work. I have to. Need to keep that im mind. I have to work)

PS: on a side note, I finished Gone With the Wind... I think I´ll read Scarlett. i need a happy ending.

Thu, 03 May 2007 00:22:58 GMT

The morning was white. White sky, white clouds, white mist covering trees and streets and all the landscape. White everything.

How do I know this? Because I had to wake up at 6 in the morning to go the doctor. Who, by the way, didn’t even look at my face. He asked if I was feeling ok, and I said and that was it. Totally not worthy. Not even for the white city, because it was to cold to enjoy the view.

So, after coming back home and sleeping for the next seven hours, I have to say that I’m almost ready to go to work. I think this so-called medical exam was the last thing I need to finish my application and then that’s it – no more guilt for staying home all the time, no more second-guessing my career (yeah right, what career?), no more wasting my whole afternoon eating chocolate and doing basically nothing.

I’ll probably regret this. Especially considering that, now, the only thing I have to do is to find out what is what exactly is Fantasy Fest at Snupin comm. And maybe bake a cake. And sleep.

I know I´ll regret it. But at least I´ll have some money.

...

Fri, 27 Apr 2007 01:44:44 GMT

Now it’s official, I have no life.

At least until the next week. Let’s see if I can at least work as a temp, because otherwise the only person with whom I speak will be my mother, and that can’t be healthy, right? (oh, and the people at my f-list)

On the bright side, having nothing to do gives me more time to spend in the beach. Let´s see if I can write something there… that place is usually very inspiring.

*go and packs*

So, everyone, see ya all next week.

***

The song Disenchanted, by My Chemical Romance, is kinda intriguing. I wish I knew what the guy is talking about... I have this feeling that it´s more deep than it seems.

Another Fanmix

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 01:01:42 GMT

Wunderkind- A Mary Sue Fanmix

She’s smart, she’s powerful, she’s pretty, she’s got curve in all the right places.

And she’s suffering. She’s been hurt so much in her past, and even if she’s so perfect nobody understands her, and people keep trying to abuse her. Still, she takes everything with her bright smile and a lovely glint in her shining eyes, always with a witty comeback that can make the most evil canon character see the error of his ways.

Such a OMGSPECHUL!!1! girl deserves a fanmix of her own, so, here’s a tribute to our favorite character – our one and only beloved Mary Sue.

Credits: The quotes I used were taken from here. All the credits belong to their creators. The picture I used belong to Kaori Yuki. Although I don’t consider her character a Sue, the image fitted my purpose. The curves, the luxuriant hair, the vibrant orbs, you know how it goes. )

Wunderkind- A Mary Sue Fanmix
A Character Tribute

1. “But there is more to her than meets the eye, for she is beautiful from the inside out, and has the power to make the beauty in her heart shine brilliantly through in everything she does. It is this inner beauty that serves her when danger threatens the friends and the kingdom she loves so.”

Wunderkind

Alanis Morisseti

I am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment
I am a wunderkind ohwowoh
I am a pioneer naïve enough to believe this
I am a princess on the way to my throne
destined to seek
destined to know

2. “She sat deep in thought. ‘Why do people think there’s something seriously wrong with me?’ She felt herself scream in her mind, ‘Why am I so...different?’ As these words streamed into her thoughts she wanted to scream, but instead a single tear slid down her pale cheek.”

Once In Every Lifetime

Jem

Trust in your path, you've been chosen
Become your destiny
Lead and they will follow you
Your truth will set you free

It's in your heart
It's in your soul
Don't be scared, keep believin'
How know you know deep inside that your time has come

3. “And because of my denial, my feelings were suppressed. Then, those pent up feelings accumulated until I couldn't recognize what it was anymore. It was that night that the inevitable happened, that big ball of pent up emotions burst in my face- and realization dawned on me… I amaze myself at how objectively I can see things. I ought to become a psychiatrist.”

Reflection

Christina Aguilera

Look at me
You may think you see who I really am
But you'll never know me
Everyday it's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

4. "Ok, let me lay down my own ground rules. If any of you touch me, you die. If any of you say something wrong or look at me in the wrong way, you lose your manhood. You go near any of my stuff, you lose your manhood. You touch my swords or my daggers you'll be in a world of pain. And to answer your question. I do not have a boyfriend nor do I need a boyfriend. Besides love can make you hesitant and could cost you your life."

The Truth Beneath The Rose
Within Temptation

Has darkness taken over me
Consumed my mortal soul?
All my virtues sacrificed
Can Heaven be so cruel?

I'm hoping, I'm praying
I won't get lost between two hearts
Follow a sin
The truth lies in between
Give me the strength to face the wrong that I have done
Now that I know
The darkest side of me

5. “Well you see, my dad split after I was born, and my mom died of cancer when I was ten, so my older brother was the only family I had after that... Well, one day I got a call from the station telling me he was in critical condition at the hospital…I made it just in time to see him before he died.”

Queen Misery

For My Pain

Too many broken promises in her fragile life
Too many secret thoughts she tried to hide that night
So hard she tried to escape
But the pain was everywhere

No, take this pain away
Even for one day
She cried on her own grave
Please, demons set me free
My heart has started to bleed
And I've become the queen misery
And it lasts forever

6. “She ran out in a fit of anger. "I'M NOT NORMAL, WILL YOU EVER UNDERSTAND THAT!?" she screamed, tears of fury welling up in her eyes. She ran away before they could react; her parents had nothing more than mouth-gaping surprise twisting their features.)

Wake Up

Hillary Duff

As people talking
They talk about me
They know my name
They think they know everything
But they don't know anything
About me

7. "She is tops in every forum of combat and she will bring down Weiss. Her strengths and her power compare to no one else's, if any one can do this job and get it done without it leading back to us she is the one to do it."

Where Will You Go

Evanescence

You're too important for anyone
You play the role of all you want to be
But I, I know who you really are
You're the one who cries before the dawn

But where will you go
With no one left to save you from yourself
You can't escape the truth
I realize you're afraid
But you can't abandon everyone
You can't escape, you don't want to escape

8. “I feel so alone, again! I thought I found eternal love, but now I'm so alone! I'm so tired…” he was crushed that a girl as beautiful as her could suffer so much. He couldn't pull himself to watch her cry.”

My December

Linkin Park

And I'd give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

This is my December
These are my snow covered trees
This is me pretending
This is all I need

And I,
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed

9. "Why would any one call you such horrible things?" he asked, love and concern in his eyes.
"Because I'm different," she said, looking into his eyes. "And people are always afraid of what is different."

Welcome to My Life

Simple Plan

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

10. “I brooded. I absolutely HATE it when I don't get my way. Spoiled? No, not at all. I pride myself at getting what I want, it's a game for me. I do the craziest and most extreme things just to win at my 'game'. And that's what happened next. In my right mind, I would have seen it was crazy and stupid… but I was obsessed.”

I Want Everything

Hope 7

I wanna be that girl who has everything
I wanna wish that I'm better, I'm gonna make it rain
I wanna fly like a bird and spread my wings
Come on, come on, come on
Hear me everything

Don't need to dream cuz it's all comin' true
Don't give me a choice cuz there's nothin' to choose
I'm on a mission, I'm not gonna lose
So don't bet against me

Aaand, last but not least, a special tribute to the Sue to end all Sues, our dear beloved Ebony Dark’ness Dementia Raven Way. Without her the Harry Potter fandom wouldn’t be the same.

11. “We ran happily to Hogsmede. There we saw the stage where GC had played. We ran in happly. MCR were there playing ‘Helena’. I was so fucking happy! Gerard looked even sexier than he did in da pictures. Even Draco thought so, I could totally see him getting an erection but it didn’t matter cuz I knew know that we were da only true ones for eachother. I was wearing a black leather minidress and black leather platinum boots with red ripped fishnets. Draco was wearing a black baggy MCR t-shirt and black baggy pants. Anyway, we stated moshing to Helena. We frenched. We ran up 2 the front of the band to stage-dive. Suddenly, Gerard pulled off his mask. So did the others. We gasped. It wasn’t them at all. It was.,……………………….. Volsemort and da Death Dealers!”

Bonus Track: Helena

My Chemical Romance

Burning on, just like the match you strike to incinerate...
The lives
Of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take?
From every heart you break
And like a blade you stake

Well, I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

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EDITED: Individual tracks being uploaded. ^^

The Bible - General - Rejected Hearts

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 02:15:37 GMT

This fanmix is based on some of my favorite characters from the Bible. It was supposed to have a small drabble about them, but the drabbles become something more like little ficlets ~~four pages each one~~ and the thing was becoming huge. They will probably be at FFNet when I find a beta-reader. ^_^

Anyway.

For some reason, the first song plays only in Winamp. Just so you know.

A fanmix based on the point of view of Bible´s rejected characters – the unblessed ones, the ones who were left behind or ignored or, in one case, were just plain in the wrong side. What would God said to these guys?

So every character has two songs, one from his (or hers) own POV and one from God POV’s.

~ A Bible Fanmix ~

God-

Our story begins.

1. Awesome God – Michael W. Smith

When He rolls up His sleeves
He ain't just puttin' on the ritz
(our God is an awesome God)
There is thunder in His footsteps
And lightning in His fist
(our God is an awesome God)
Well, the Lord wasn't joking
When He kicked 'em out of Eden
It wasn't for no reason that He shed his blood
His return is very close and so you better be believing
that our God is an awesome God

Ishmael – From rejected older son to father of at nation: meet the boy who got water from heaven.

2. The Way – Fastball

They made up their minds
And they started packing
They left before the sun came up that day
An exit to eternal summer slacking
But where were they going Without ever knowing the way?

3. You’ll Never Walk Alone - PoG

You will face mountains so steep
Deserts so long and valleys so deep
Sometimes the Journey's gentle
Sometimes the cold winds blow
But I want you to remember
I want you to know

You will never walk alone

Esau – Sometimes you are just not good enough – but, then again, nobody is.

3. Collide – Dishwalla

When I came here there was more.
Now I've come back to destroy,
And I've got nothing left,
And it's a shame what we've become,
When we hurt the ones we love,
And it's a place I can not go,
Anymore.

4. Through Heaven’s Eyes –Prince of Egypt OST


      		So how can you see what your life is worth
		Or where your value lies?
		You can never see through the eyes of man
		You must look at your life			
               Look at your life through heaven's eyes

Saul – You fought, you lost, you tried oh-so-hard to talk with God again. One could say there’s only one thing you didn’t tried - but you’ll never guess what is it, will you?

2. Easier to Run – Linkin Park

If I could change I would

Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

3. Heal My Soul - Savatage

In the graveyard
Of my heart now
Sleep the years
That I've long sold
For their markers
Is there nothing
Only ghost
I can not hold
Father hear me
I am tired
Shall I waken
In thy home

Abigail – Clever, beautiful and not-so-faithful – were you afraid when you threw yourself at the mercy of soon-to-be King David? Or were you already feeling the calling of a life different from everything you knew?

8. Last Way Out Of Here - Paloalto

Running faster through the trees
Feeling nothing underneath
Your eyes are opened wide, let it come in
Looking for the laughter show
Is it out there anymore?
Your head is lifting up to see how far to run

And you're feeling who you are
And you don't care who it is, how do you feel?
And you're barely wonderful
And you don't care if it hurts, how do you feel?
It's the last way out of here

9. Make it Last Forever – Avalon

Can you feel it
It's like a thunder
Something moving like an echo
through your heart
Do you hear it
A voice is calling out of nowhere
through the noise to where you are
You can't ignore it
You're created for it

Nebuchadnezzar – “How great I am,” said the king, “And great are the works of my hand" –thus starting his long journey through insanity and back. ~~extra points if you actually remember this guy~~

10. Windmill of Your Mind – Sting

Like a tunnel that you follow
To a tunnel of it's own
Down a hollow to a cavern
Where the sun has never shone
Like a door that keeps revolving
In a half forgotten dream
Or the ripples from a pebble
Someone tosses in a stream.

11. Never Been Unloved – Michael W. Smith

I have been unbroken
I have been unmended
I have been uneasy
And I’ve been unapproachable

Sometimes, I have been unwise
I’ve been undone by what I’m unsure of
But because of you, and all that you went through
I know that I have never been unloved

Bonus Track:

12. Twila Paris - Every Heart That It’s Breaking Tonight

Every heart that is breaking tonight
Is the heart of a child that He holds in His sight
And Oh how He longs to hold in His arms
Every heart that is breaking tonight

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Happy passover everyone ^_^

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